The Fear of fall in love

There was summer in France, 2013. I was laying down up in my bed written the next chapter for my book. The book was going to be about a woman and her addiction to sex. basically, the theme I took it observing my next door neighbour, She was a young french woman, to this day I don't exactly know  her name, but the thing I know the most is that she has slept with half of the men in Paris. It was mostly at night when the woman had the mayor action, entire Paris could listen to the noise coming out of her master bed, someday she invite friends over and stay there until morning, for me I finding interesting, not because of the sex part, because the way she live, she only had sex with stranger, you never saw her actually being in love; with any man. It's like  she close that part of her human emotion and never use it, just the sex part in which I believe is the easy part. Falling in love its like divide your soul in two fragment. There is the vulnerable part, in which case your innocence is giving completely  to the one you care the most, and there is the sensitive part, the one part in yourself that can be damage in just a minute, it is like your krypton, you get so passionate and in touch to that special one, that you forget about yourself and the rest of the world. It is extremely danger to fall in love, that is why you do it just one and with a person in which you feel so connected that you know that is the one you want to spend the rest of you life with that special one. For this matter, I believe  now why  she act like  that, why she prefers sex instead of love, maybe in her life love come at the end, or maybe she has a terrible experience with love that she is running for that path or maybe she is better having sex than to falls in love. I not admire her way of living, I just feel bad for her, in the end I think she want to falls in love and she want to find that special one, but because of her way of living or her inner fear, she is not willing to take that chance and preferred the easy way out. It is sad living how she is living, sex instead of love; I can live like that, for me falling in love is the best thing that was discovered in the world, its like the close it thing to magic that we ever going to be near it. Falling in love is the best thing in the world, because you let life depend in the most beautiful thing that is worth living for, so it is worth  to fall in love.